11 x 7 1/2″
Acrylic on watercolor paper, collage, damaged screen section
So, been a while since I posted something. Lots of good reasons which at first I thought I wouldn’t mention but then I figured it might entertain you. Studying for my Ayurveda Health Counselor exams which are mostly in Sanskrit and well, it’s like learning a new language PLUS an enormous amount of theory and practice. Taking them next week so dreaming of reading what I want to read when I arise at the crack of dawn with a strong cup of java in hand. Also, stressed over a few deadlines, teaching my regular classes and scheduling workshops. Oh and toss in a side order of switching blog templates (duh, duh DUHHHH) and trying to get my Yoga, Ayurveda and More website going so I can begin to take consultations post-exams and….POW! Inhale – exhale = ART. When I couldn’t stand it any longer, I buried myself in my art lab on a rainy afternoon and worked on “Beloved”.
I had recently argued with a sibling who told me I wasn’t ‘lovable’ (full disclosure: she listed all the reasons WHY I was unlovable). My anger rose in fury over her comment. More than smarting from the insult, I felt manipulated. I wanted to laugh (not because it was funny, because it wasn’t, it hurt alot) but that she even thought she had the power to tell me I was unlovable. We are always and will always be 1) enough and 2) worthy of love – even if it’s only from our own heart. Most of you know, that a few times a year, I ‘upload’ through my dreams, new perspectives, insights, and visions during sleep. It’s how I began to create my art 5 years ago – just woke up and began to create like a fiend. But my recent spring upload upon rising one morning, was perfectly timed: I felt super calm, clear and refreshed to know I am and will always be worthy of love. No conditions, no reasons or accomplishments, no excuses. I am love. And so are you. Have a “beloved” day.